Heading Thru a Rough Patch..

I'm sitting here, writing this blog when i technically should be home takin a nap. The headache is getting to me and its making me search for a very very vulnerable soul whom i shred into bits. But unfortunately my sane self stops me from doin so. I never in my life had d slightest of clue that being in the corporate world could be so challenging. Right now i feel worthless, tired, drained and sick. And all this at the same time.

Did the screen just shift or is it my head spinning. Oh God I'm so confused right now. Don't know what I'm doin? Why I'm doin? Whether I should be here? If I'm creative enuf to survive for long in this world of madness? I at times even doubt my potential as a copywriter. Believe me there are too many talented people out there. But then at other times i feel i can learn it all. I can improve my vocabulary. Hey, so what if i take a lil' help from spell check. There's nothing wrong with that.

Too many things cluttering my mind. Maybe that's whats causing all the headache. I think too much all the time. About everyone else. About their perspectives, views n opinions of me. But i think its about time I say "I CARE A DAMN". Yes, I care a damn, about what you think about me, about my work or about my life. I don't want to be under your microscope round the clock, 365 days. I just wanna b free. Let alone to do what i do the best, Wandering, without having people to judge me. And those who do here's what I'd say to them "Get a Life"

Aww...did I offend you?? then its a cue for u to stop playin intruder:P

Virtual Companionship.. :)

Chatting can be so much of an Addiction.But it can also be a way to communicate your mood swings with the world..or at least your friends.When your status tag says it all and everyone keeps asking wats wid u today? or who r u talking abt? or just a plain r u havin a bad day? But it kind of feels good at the same time to know people r inquisitive about your life and wanna know more.

There's a certain sweet friend of mine who puts in extra efforts every single day to read these stupid tags and makes sure she comments on it. She tries to cheer me up wen m low or reason her way into my mind judging my mood from the lines. She promises to slap me the next time we meet only bcoz i write depressing stuff. She yells and screams when she's happy or sad and sends smileys during chats. For me chatting with her is much more than a break from work. Its a way to share my day with her even when v r miles apart. Letting her know the minutest details of my stressful days and asking her how her day is progressing has bcum lyk my morning tea..Unavoidable and Irreplaceable. And i just want to thank her for forcing me into writing more often and for havin faith in me..(courtesy:Gtalk :D)

P.S: stop saying that you can't write...
Muah!!

Chapter Closes

Crying, sad, crying, heartbroken, crying, confused…
I saw me…
In a crowd of fifty…
I saw me…
Loss of a loved one,
The pain that follows,
A mist that covers happiness…
Crying the soul out…
For the soul has been ripped apart by cruel fate...
Fate called death….

Crying, sad, crying, heartbroken, crying, just crying…
I saw me…
Wading my way…
To get a final glimpse…
Of what is never to be seen again…
By human or otherwise…
To bid final goodbyes…
To say the final farewell…
Begging the soul to rest in eternal peace…
Peace that it sought through life…

Crying, sad, crying, heartbroken, crying, but happy…
I saw me…
Walking up to the corpse…
Smile on my face…
As all has been said and done…
One final request…
Please don’t cry…
Please don’t cry…
For life’s purpose has been served and its time…
Time to move on….

Crying, sad, crying, heartbroken, crying, crying…
I saw me…
I saw the light…
I moved on…
It seemed to be waiting…
Turned around…
One last look…
I saw me…
Dead, smiling, dead, happy….
I saw me…
The chapter closes…

I'm With You

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here...By now...

There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound...

Isn't anyone trying to find me
Won't somebody come take me home
Its a Damn Cold Night...
I'm trying to figure out this life...
Won't you take me by the hand...
Take me somewhere new...
I don't know who you are...But I..
I'm with you...
I'm with you...


I'm lookin for a place
I'm searching for a face
Is anybody here...i know...

Cause nothings going right
And everythings a mess
And noone likes to be alone...

Isn't anyone trying to find me
Won't somebody come take me home
Its a Damn Cold Night...
I'm trying to figure out this life...
Won't you take me by the hand...
Take me somewhere new...
I don't know who you are...But I..
I'm with you...
I'm with you...

Why is everything so confusing?
Maybe I'm just out of my mind...
Its a Damn Cold Night...
I'm trying to figure out this life...
Won't you take me by the hand...
Take me somewhere new...
I don't know who you are...But I..
I'm with you...
I'm with you...



- Avril Lavinge



( just heard this song over 20 times today....so jst felt like keying it in...its a DAMN NICE SONG...can relate to it somehow...)

ALL I WANT TO SAY

I well remember those days..
Everything was brand new...
When the dreams seemed real...
Something we cud do...
Conversation over the chais...
Those hour long goodbyes...
You needed me..
I needed you...

You held onto me through thick & thin...
You cheered at my every win...
We were inseparable...
It was more than a fable...
But as you know...
Life had its own plan...
The one it had for us...
Questioned our existence...
We had to separate...
Go our different ways...
It was something called a phase...
But you moved on..so did I...
We didn't even say goodbye...
You confided in others...so did i...
Now v look at old photos n cry...
You are always there with me...
And in my prayer you'll always be...
If you want to go back to those days...
You'll have to make an effort...
And we'll have to re-work on the rapport...
Just call me back...
So we can chat...
I'll try.. And so will you..
This much we'll have to do...
So I'm waiting...
Waiting...Waiting...For you...